To need....

Last night I called my dad up crying. I had not done that since I was eight or nine. I needed him.  In that moment I wasnt Laurel 21 year old aspiring teacher, I was a child needing her father, needing to climb into his arms and weep because the day had been too much for me to handle. I needed him to take me in his arms and stroke back my hair telling me how everything was going to all right and how wonderful I am. Now, my father lives in Delaware and I live in Arizona, so he was not able to hold me but he did the only thing he could.  He used his words to make the worries of the day seem like nothing but a puff of smoke that has now passed by. I have had my dad on the bench for 12 or so years.  I normally go to my mom when I have a bad day or need advice. It made me feel comforted that he can still get off the bench and pitch a few innings. We seem to drift further and further apart as the years pass and this saddens me, but as I grow and sore threw life I like knowing he'll still be there keeping that bench warm, waiting for my return.

xoxo

We bought a zoo....

OK OK you caught me maybe i stretched the truth a little tiney bit, it was more like we went to the zoo. On Saturday, a few of my girlfriends and I went to the phoenix zoo. The weather has just been so beautiful and we could not pass up the opportunity of spending time outdoors while we still can.  When June july and august hit nobody will be doing anything but swiming and ac hopping. We spent the whole afternoon milling around looking at animals and having snacks.

We went to the section where we could pet the animals and had fun brushing the goats. They are so lazy, kind of like my dogs just laying around waiting for someone to come by and give then some loving. Which we obliged happily. 

The monkeys were my favorite part.  We were able to go in their habitat with them and they were about a foot away from you just climbimg all around. They were so close that you could touch them if you wanted. I would have if there werent staff standing by saying dont touch them if they come to you just step back. I kept thinking yea right if one comes up to me Im stuffing it under my shirt and casually walking away. Maybe they could hear my thoughts because they stuck awfully close to me with those squirt bottles. I told my friend Cami that the squirt bottles were for us and that any moment they were going to start squirting us for being too close.

Over all we had a great day walking if the fresh air and spending time together watching the animals. Oh do you like my new friend? I tried to sit on him but I kept slidding around like butter. So this is what you get.

xoxo

The truth is a scary thing to admit...

This morning I put my courageous hat on and dug real deep into the complex things that I have been to afraid to face. I realized that in order to find someone who is worth having in your life, you have to show all your cards not expecting anything from them in return. By hiding a part of yourself and not giving your whole self, the truly beautiful part is being stunted like a tree not able to seek out the sunlight. I realized this morning that everyone deserves to be loved and with holding back any part of loving another person even, when its tough, can scar them and prevent them from growth and knowing love. Being one of Gods children comes with responsibility and hiding from it only makes you a coward and not a disciple. So I have come to the conclusion that I will show all my card always, Love everyone especially threw the hard stuff and be the strongest disciple that he has made for me to be. Because tomorrow may never come so I'm going to appreciate what life I have today.

xoxo